Year two with my babe, has brought about such a change in me mentally and emotionally. I have moved from sleep deprivation and difficult emotions to one of joy and magic. I found myself laying in bed last night as tears rolled down my cheeks thinking of how fast my babes have grown, and though it’s so cliche, I wasn’t sure if I was crying because they are so big now, or because of the change I can feel in myself mentally. It’s a strange thing, going through different seasons in your life, but I so welcome this one of happiness! One day can be so challenging you cannot wait for a break, and the next is so joyful you don’t want to leave, afraid you’ll miss something. Is that the meaning of life? Last week Finley and Foster were sitting together in her glider giggling and reading books and I just sat there and stared at them, filled with happiness and thought “this is the stuff dreams are made of”. But, then I flash back to last year and think how does life go so quickly from such hardships to such happiness? The first year you can read all about here, but it was so difficult for me. Adjusting to two babes, not sleeping, no down time until the kids went to bed at night, to just knowing the baby would be up in a few hours to start all over again. The adjustment for Finley was very hard as well, as was for me. I felt constantly guilty that I gave up all my alone time with him, to now be with Foster, since babies are so demanding. He always “had to wait” therefore, she could not. This year, we have adjusted to a great schedule, everyone sleeps all night, each day Finley becomes more of a “friend” to Foster, and I can leave them alone for a few minutes without anything happening! This was a huge one for me! I can actually let them play while I get ready or eat lunch. Game changer!
I did something today that I thought was pretty much the best idea ever. I started e-mail accounts for the kids so I can write them e-mails on a regular basis. When they grow up and get the sign-on they will open their inbox and have all these e-mails from me. I thought it was a great way to remember events, little things that happen, and even pictures. Some days I think, will I remember this funny thing they said or did? Now I can write it in the e-mail and hopefully we can all ready it in the future together.
“The most important relationship you have is the one you have with yourself” Diane Von Furstenburg said that. Remember that moms. Being a mom is hard, don’t lose yourself in it. It doesn’t last forever.