It’s setting in that we’re going from a family of 3 to a family of 4! It’s also setting in that I’m having a girl (yikes) but I can’t help but feel sad too. I mean we are so comfortable just the three of us, and to be honest it’s easy! When we go out to eat we both watch him and take turns going to the bathroom or finishing our wine. When one of us goes out of town it’s easy to just have one to watch alone. We even just took him to Disneyland and that was easy! How am I going to do this alone with two? When I go out alone with just Finley that’s doable. I mean I have to chase him during brunch but how am I going to chase him and hold an infant? How do people do this?! Obviously I wanted more then one child but it saddens me to think Finley’s view of our family dynamic will change and it won’t just be “us” anymore. Now we do everything together, and I can’t fathom the idea of having to put a newborn before him and letting him feel neglected. How do I still make him feel important? I’m sure all of this will be a learning experience as it was going from no children to Finley and it will be hard at first but then it will become our new normal. Being a parent really and truly is the hardest and more rewarding thing I’ve ever done and will do. XO
